Resentment

Recently I feel a sense resentment towards my job. I use to love children very much, but after working at that particular childcare I just feel like getting myself as far away from children as possible, to the point I find children a little disgusting.

The situation doesn't help with such one irritating collegue whom everyone hates due to her uncouth, rude and irresponsible work attitude. What's worse, 'someone' is rather useless I feel. She just wants to be the good guy in our environment, thus doesn't bother to speak to her. A good leader is one who listens to suggestions and make improvements, but sadly, mine doesn't. She frowns upon suggestions, doesn't encourage your honest opinion that something which she planned is not working(despite seeing it for herself), and worse, constant missing in action.

Now the working environment is a living nightmare. Disorganized, shorthanded despite having 30 odd staff where other schools runs perfectly well with only 9. Weak curriculum and lousy worksheets which i'm not afraid to say it although I'm not fully trained.

C'mon, 4 more months to year end. Afterwhich I can take my AWS and RUNNNNN!!! Or should I say ESCAPE!!!

Then again, AWS is performance based. WTF! Alreadie we are quite pathetic without year end bonus, now our AWS is what?! Performance based. Wonderful. Not that I worry I'm not up to expectations, just that I find it.. STUPID!

Please make time past quickly, cos it's like crawling so slowly. I'll be off to work in 1hrs time. This 1 hr is a struggle for me. I feel like killing myself. ARGHH!!