a parellel universe

Maybe it's my resentment towards reality and my current situation which makes me want to fall back on my ridiculous belief that a parallel universe do exist.

From now onwards I shall (/ignore) on every unhappy things i hear, see and face. When someone you hope to understand you doesn't and the person who understands you the most doesn't exist, you just have to rely on yourself and God to make yourself less upset.

Probably it's best for us to stay(literally) this way. I can predcit so much conflict between us if we stay together as your character will always clash with mine. And I do see myself trying to tolerate and all I ask is for assurance and understanding, but no matter how hard I try to explain to get you to see how I feel, you always see me as stubborn or difficult. I don't need you to agree with me, I just need you to feel and empathize with me. Is that too hard to ask of you?

for December.

• work on my punctuality. be 10minutes earlier.
• be an observer first, followed by a listener before i make comments
• gossip less
• spend less on unecessary muchies

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Having only 3.5hours of sleep last night is a killer. The whole day, I was feeling sleepy, it was hard to focus on the things I was doing and the worst part was the throbbing in my head. TERRIBLE!

Was thinking of other alternatives other than resigning. Perhaps I should request for Part-tiem position, whereby I clock-in 30hours a week instead of the current 44hours. That way, I will have ample time to have fun while trying to earn some money. Wonder how good will this idea of mine be and wonder if BOSS will agree.

OFF TO BED!

2010

Next year I want to take up Eletronic Keyboard and Pilates :D

back to work.

How nice if everyone gets to enjoy a 4day work week or 24 days annual leave. Never ever will it be possible. Guess I'll just dream on.

It's going to be week after week of 'extra- curricula activities' at work. SIANZ! I seriously don't see a point giving my 101% for this company. Or maybe I just lack of motivation.

$$ is motivation. And I'm not getting enough of it from this line. Torn between simplicity and cash. What will my ultimate decision be? Though I am certain I will leave this company in 4 moths time.

Aim: Tender resignation on the 1st March 2010.

best live version in my opinion.

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

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the movie was great and the song is fantastic.

favorite movie and song, and liv tyler was super hot in the movie :P

Every 2 years

I'm wrong!!! A trip to the countries I would love to visit is POSSIBLE. And I'm going to do so every 2 years. Wanted to start off with Australia next year, but I realize that if I don't aim for USA first, I'll probably be too old for DisneyLand. Anyway, I'm going to save my ass off and see which one I can afford first. $3000 here I come!!!

stay on for another year?

I'm in a dilenma. As much as I dislike being in my current work environment, I am a bit lazy to move to a new place and the reason for me choosing to work in Holland is still not met yet. Anyway, I'll remain till I can't tolerate anymore.

Can't wait to watch the movie 2012. It looks real good to me.

If I have the opportunity, I want to go overseas to do my degree too. But I'm not blessed with that kind of money.

Chao ta's COMING BACK!
Yippie.

2010 Trip To Sydney Australia

It's the 3rd time I;m reading the book "Lucy in the Sky" by Paige Toon, and each time I read the book, I can't help but to imagine myself being in Sydney's Manly Beach. So next year, I must visit that place! And I will. I'm so going to work hard, and save hard to fufil this wish of mine. I estimated the cost and this is what I have calculated for 2 pax for a 6D 5N Trip.

Spenditure: $2000
SIA Air Tix: $1928
Hotel: $1100

Total Cost: $5028

(prices in SGD)

guess i have to save harder.
Oct- May, 8 months
$350/ month.

random musings

Honestly, I'm enjoying staying apart from Chao Ta and going over to his place over the weekends; at least for now. It gives me the personal space I need and reduces the chance of any possible arguements. I hate arguing with him, each time I argue with him, I get the feeling the relationship is going to end. Although I know I'm just being too emotional and drama la but it's still very depressing.

But But But.. it's weird when I'm him, I hope I'm not, but when I am not, I wish i can be right next to him.

Ok. Maybe I'm just crazy. Hmm......

ok.. to be ignored.

i'm probably just feeling anal cos my bag decided to died on me in the middle of Orchard Road, and I had no choice but to carry all my stuffs in 2 huge Takashimaya paperbags.
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Time to be pro- active in making friendships. I should start with Mr Ta whom I last saw in year 2006 but chat with on MSN almost everyday. I want to be loner- kia no more. HAHA!!

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i wonder how does vodka with cranberry taste like. Melissa says it taste like medicine.
???

really?

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I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams

(Fireflies- Owl City)

Chao Ta

10 questions i want to ask you?

1. can i fall in love with you all over again?

2. will you sponsor marie france body line treatment when i am starting to be unable to regain my figure after childbirth?

3. if i tell you i am holding back will you be upset?

4. can you forgo your support for MANU and join the KOP?

5. can we go to australia or japan next year?

6. can headbutt, elbow you and finally end it with a figure of '8'?

7. will you laugh at me if i fall down in the public?

8. can you say something nice?

9. will you take slow walks with me?

10. if i die? will you cry?

simple yet so difficult.

Need to add 100% more patience to my already 80% patience. Why didn't I thought of being a Pre-school teacher earlier. Though I earn less, but at least life now is much simpler, peaceful and happier. I enjoy being around children. Although some can really suck my blood, but still, they will do the cutest thing which makes me smile.

A friend asked me what are the Top 100 things I would want to do/ achieve before I die. Hmm... I don't know if I have 100 things, but I do have some.

1. Visit Japan, Russia, Germany, Amsterdam, USA, London, Greece
2. Attend a wine appreciation course
3. Learn to play either a drum/ guitar/ keyboard
4. Take a ride on a Vespa
5. Keep my hair to waist length and perm it
6. Drink till I'm dead drunk
7. A collection of 20 pairs of converse in various colors and designs
8. A degree
9. Watch a live soccer match in Europe
10. Experience winter
11. Live overseas for a month or more
12. Experiencing falling crazily in love for someone
13. Open beer bottle caps using my teeth
14. Get a nose job
15. Fimer abs, thighs and arms
16. Meet Fann Wong in person
17. Adopt a pen- pal
18. Pick up japanese and french language
19. Be an air stewardess
20. Go on a backpacking trip to one of the countries stated in Point #1
21. Step foot into Zouk/ ButterFactory/ St. James
22. Visit a Thai Pub
23. Spent $1000 in a day shopping in Bangkok
24. Go on a holida alone to somewhere. But I'm afraid to sleep in the dark and alone.
25. Sing with a band

That's about all I can think of for now.

Off to bed.......

罗忆诗- 别再哭了

伤心情歌播几遍了 你的眼还湿红红的
生命总有些过客 现在不过多了一个
结束了何必再拉扯 有些事总该遗忘的
你听着听着又哭了我明白的 谁都难免不舍

别再哭了 多不值得 想一想把爱情看透彻
生活苦涩该他负责 他会后悔他做了这选择
别再哭了 多不值得 失去也是另一种获得
伤心情歌 不属你的 幸福不一定非爱谁不可
难熬的 会经过的

爱错了 又能如何

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好好听的一首歌.

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Work is more or less the same. Nothing new or interesting happening lately. I'll graduate in another 1 more year and was wondering if I should commit myself to this organization? Bettre not! Considering how disorganize and immature my superiors can be. Yawnz. Where oh where should I venture too? A small but promising place maybe?

Off to bed.. sleeeeeeeeeeeepy.

不能说的秘密

你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远
又何必去改变 已错过的时间
你用你的指尖 阻止说我再见
想象你在身边 在完全失去之前
你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远
或许命运的签 只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋 这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现 这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

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spent $144 today. Faints. But But... I'm in contro!!

i miss steamboat buffet.
i miss shiok drink nights with you

liverpool liverpool liverpool

what's wrong with you?