The last time I really studied for an exam would be 6 years ago, when I was still a student at NYP. I thought studying days were over when I dropped out of school; here I am, 6 years later, killing my brain cells, trying to remember a load full of information on early intervention for children with special needs. Then again, from my exam notes, studying doesn’t really kills brain cells, apparently it ‘awakens’ them. Unfortunately, my brain cells are just like me, ‘special’ therefore it dies upon 50% of work.
Ok, excuses, I’m just lazy! Hey, whoever in the world loves exams man? Maybe there is, but it should be the minorities right?
2hrs into studying, I already feel like hitting the sack. I’m so tired! Guess I’ll have to continue tomorrow. Luckily Chao Ta isn’t in town, if not it would be another form of distraction apart from my enticing bed. He left for a 1 day road trip to Malaysia- Malacca. He’ll be back tomorrow evening. Wonder what is he doing now? According to him, I was sleep- talking last night. He couldn’t really make out what I was saying though. Hmm, I guess it’s got to do with the discomfort of a hot and stuffy room, wearing a hair band to bed (which he didn’t take remove for me) and forgetting to brush my teeth.
Anyway we were talking about friendships and friends last night. Well, I guess it’s quite obvious by now that I’m a loner by choice. Somehow, I find friendships quite a chore to maintain and honestly it’s a really huge commitment. Luckily for me, despite my seemingly can’t be bothered nature, I still have 2 friends. Stefanie and Sydney. Although the latter seemed to give me a ‘there but not there feel’. Well of course, like in any other relationships, there is no obligation that it has to be everlasting but it’ll be better if it could be as long as possible.
I do believe all things happen for a reason, and I got to accept the fact that it is God’s intricate plan to allow certain things to happen; which brings me to where I am today; finding joy with my work, family and Chao Ta, and learning about, love, appreciation, self- control, freedom and responsibility.
但是我这美好的人生总会有一个遗憾.
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