Tuesday, November 3, 2009

罗忆诗- 别再哭了


伤心情歌播几遍了 你的眼还湿红红的
生命总有些过客 现在不过多了一个
结束了何必再拉扯 有些事总该遗忘的
你听着听着又哭了我明白的 谁都难免不舍

别再哭了 多不值得 想一想把爱情看透彻
生活苦涩该他负责 他会后悔他做了这选择
别再哭了 多不值得 失去也是另一种获得
伤心情歌 不属你的 幸福不一定非爱谁不可
难熬的 会经过的

爱错了 又能如何

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好好听的一首歌.

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Work is more or less the same. Nothing new or interesting happening lately. I'll graduate in another 1 more year and was wondering if I should commit myself to this organization? Bettre not! Considering how disorganize and immature my superiors can be. Yawnz. Where oh where should I venture too? A small but promising place maybe?

Off to bed.. sleeeeeeeeeeeepy.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

不能说的秘密

你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远
又何必去改变 已错过的时间
你用你的指尖 阻止说我再见
想象你在身边 在完全失去之前
你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远
或许命运的签 只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋 这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现 这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

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spent $144 today. Faints. But But... I'm in contro!!

i miss steamboat buffet.
i miss shiok drink nights with you

liverpool liverpool liverpool

what's wrong with you?

Saturday, October 31, 2009

by December 2009

I plan to save up for 3 items after getting December's pay and AWS which comes early during December :D

1. Chao Ta's X'ms Present
3. A mini Braun Buffel Wallet
2. A Coach Wrislet

Estimated pocket damage.. $500 or less.

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I've finally worked in an organization for 1 year plus. What an achievement! :P However, I'm planning to tender in April 2010 if the workload for next year proves too much for me to handle. 2010 is going to be a hetic year, with the huge responsibility of preparing the little ones for Primary education, involving myself in K2 kid's camp and year end concert, and the line up of modules and assignments, I can see myself having breakouts very often. *crosses- fingers*

Hoefully, after my Diploma course, I can continue to do my Masters. Getting a degree is SO DAMN EXPENSIVE!!! $27, 820. With that kind of money, I can easily hold a 28 table wedding dinner banquet at The Regent Hotel and still have 3K+ leftover for a honeymoon. And you think getting a degree is just simple as paying the fees and you can get in? NO WAY! One still has to complete a 2- 3 page essay and 2 referals. What the ****! I guess that's the price to pay(no pun intended) in order for me to be on par with the standards of nowadays and to make sure I gain foothold in the early childhood education sector.

Despite my great wish to do my Masters, my priority is to hold my wedding dinner. I want to officially announce to my family and friends that Chao ta is my husband, and most importantly to be proudly married into the Chau family so that I won't be look down upon by __________.

Chao Ta: Walao, who will look down on you?!
Me: Maybe I am sensitive, but just for assurance, I want to have a proper and semi- grand wedding dinner or lunch.

oh, oh, oh and fufil my wish of wearing an evening gown made by my Aunty Alice, and having my grandparents to wittness my wedding and having the oppoprtunity to drink the chinese tea offered by me and their grandson-in-law :D

aim: to hold my wedding dinner by 4th quater of 2011 or 1st quater of 2012.

Hopefully I can tio a $30K 4D den I can hold my wedding on 4May2011 :D
Maybe I should invest 1223 $5 every wed, sat and sun.
*ponders, ponders, ponders*

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Was flipping through the novel "The Picture of Dorian Gray"b by Oscar Wilde and found this rather interesting.

" The ugly and the stupid have the best of it in this world. The can sit at their ease and gape at the play. If they know nothing of victory, they are at least spared from the knowledge of defeat. They live as we all should live, undisturbed, indifferent and without disquiet. They neither bring ruin upon others, nor ever recieve it from alien hands..."

What do you think?
I'm just happy being avergage.

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Time to go to bed.
Sleepy and sicly.


do you hear me talking to you,
across the water across the deep blue ocean, under the open sky
oh my! baby i'm trying.

boy i hear you in my dreams
i feel you whisper across the sea
keep you with me in my heart, you make it easier when life gets hard.

lucky i'm in love with my best friend
lucky to have been where i have been
lucky to be coming home again.

(Lucky- Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat)


I miss Chao Ta. Can't wait for him to come back so that i can irritate the shit out of him by constantly whinning, wriggling and randomness. HAHAHHAHHAAHAHAH!

Just 10 more days ....

Friday, October 30, 2009

i want

i want to instantly have $208 so that i can purchase the estee lauder makeup set. but i know it's impossible, and i am not allowed to use the credit card this month because next month i have to pay some stuffs. SAD:( it's suppose to be a very good buy! i shall wait till next year nov. cos it's a per year thing. haiz!!

sad to be a poor teacher
sux to have no extra $$

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it's like even if you are free you oso have no time for me. sometimes i wan talk to you, then you just want to quickly end the discussion with me.

it's so hard sometimes to communicate with you...

but but but... ... ...
whenever you are not around, i miss you so much and love you more then when you are around. i'm so silly sometimes and i feel like i'm dunno talking what nonsense.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

happy being alone

Anti- social is such a general term to describe people who doesn't like to socialize or have little friends. I for many times been described as anti- social by some. But I'm not! One thing straight I can talk and mingle with strangers, I just avoid forming close friendships with anyone because I find that having best friends requires too much commitment and effort and therefore havaing 1 or 2 is more than enough.

Oh, and recently I find that I am surrounded by stupid people who thinks that he or she is really good or talented or smart. I feel like telling them staright off into their faces that they are just plain stupid. OK. I know i'm so evil. But really la, some peoplee just irks you.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

a question

Chao Ta asked me a random question few days ago.

"What is the 1 thing you'll ask from Santa?"

Somehow, this random and common question got me thinking for a few days. What do I really want? I guess majority would agree that just 1 request is never enough and they'll probably use the 1 request to ask for more requests; I am just like the majority. There are so many things I wish I could have right now and I could classify them as the impossible, the probably and the able to.

Impossible
- A time machine to go back in time, to make all the wrongs right again. I use to say I never regreted all the things I did in the past, but after much thought... I DO REGRET!!! If I can have a time machine, I'll go back in time and put in more effort in Secondary School, complete my Diploma in Nursing and continue to do my degree in Nursing overseas and finally working overseas.
- my own home with my husband and kids only
- my loved ones to forever and ever be around
- the Pre- school sector's pay can be proportionate to our qualifications, and our benefits will be as good or at least be comparable to that of a construction worker

Probably
- travel to all the countries on my 'places i want to visit before I die list'
- set up my own childcare centre/ kindergraten
- Tag Heur watch
- be a part- time housewife
- wedding dinner
- Bachelor of Science in Early Childhood Education

Able To
- Burberry wallet
- Longchamp Le Pilage long handle
- COACH wrislet
- Masters of Science in Early Childhood Education

WOW!! That's indeed a long list of things which I will ask from Santa. Out of the so many things I wish I could have, it would be my loved ones to be with me forever.

It's always the impossible that one would wish for because you hope that with the help of some magical fairy dust that wish of yours would come true as it is beyond your physical means to achieve it.
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As for my able to's, I'll thank Chao Ta in advance :P
just joking :D